JACK Tweed has described late wife Jade Goody's heartbreaking last moments as "the worst thing you can ever experience."
Not a day goes by where the 33-year-old doesn't think of Jade, who died from cervical cancer on Mother's Day in 2009.
Despite the multitude of fond memories, Jack said he still struggles to get Jade’s dying moments out of his head.
In an exclusive interview with The Sun, he said: “Her last words were mumbled because she was really ill for the last few weeks,” he says. “I was by her side every single second. Nothing used to make sense. She deteriorated.
“Sometimes it’s hard to forget that side of Jade, that wasn’t Jade. That is the worst thing you can ever experience.
“Someone you love so much, deteriorating in front of your eyes and there is nothing you can do.
“It’s hard to get that out your head, I won’t lie. I want to remember the happy, bubbly, constantly laughing Jade.
“I am always talking about her, so she is never in the back of my mind. She is always in the front of my mind.
“Talking about her helps because it feels like she is still here.”
In a couple of weeks, Jack will pay tribute to his wife all over again on 22nd March, the anniversary of her death.
But 12 years on, Jack said he can remember their wedding day like it was days ago.
“Honestly I can remember it like it was last month and I have got the worst memory. I can still hear her laughing and talking and crying. It doesn’t feel like it was 12 years ago.”
Jack said his fondest memories are of holidays with Jade and her sons Bobby and Freddie.
He said: “We would go out and be out until six in the morning – in some random club in the Bahamas. It was like going on holiday with your best mate.
“She was my best mate and I loved spending every second with her. There was nowhere I wanted to be apart from with Jade.”
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