Sarah Harding lived a life of freedom in the leafy Buckinghamshire hamlet of Casden with her beloved French Bulldogs and cats until she was heartbreakingly diagnosed with cancer.
The Girls Aloud singer lived several hours away from her family who lived in Manchester, where she had grown up after relocating from Ascot to be closer to mum, Marie's family.
Sarah, 39, who attended several boarding schools during the early years of her life has always found peace in being independent, moving to a swanky apartment in London after finding fame in the chart-mauling girl band.
While she notes that she has to watch her whereabouts and rarely leaves the house due to lockdown, Harding feels that she has lost her independence.
Putting pen to paper in her debut autobiography, Hear Me Out, which is released today, she wrote: "It sometimes surprises me, the things that really get me down while living with an illness.
"Of course, there's the obvious stuff, like thinking about my own mortality, and the relentless treatment and the pain that often comes with it.
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"One of the things that is particularly sh***y is the loss of independence."
The star who grew up wanting to be a singer from a young age added: "I was out in the world and independent from quite a young age, so to feel that slipping away from me is hard.
"Actually, it's not even just slipping away; it's been bl**dy well snatched away."
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Nowadays, Sarah has her own bedroom at Marie's home in Manchester but has since relocated to her own apartment close to her mum's home in order to regain her independence.
"It's a hard reality to face, but because of the tumour in my brain, it's been decided that I should not live on my own," she said.
Sarah moved into her first studio apartment in the late 1990s, close to Salford Quays while taking up a job in a local hair salon and enrolling on a Hair and Beauty course at a local college.
Away from her college course, she also worked as a Pizza Hut waitress before spending her spare time serving boozy customers in a nearby nightclub.
Sarah Harding – Hear Me Out
Daily Star revealed earlier this week that Sarah's tumours in her brain and lungs had reduced after a course of successful treatment but sadly, medical staff gave her shattering news.
During an appointment with her consultant, Harding was told that her cancer was terminal and she may not make it to see another Christmas.
Before the release of her autobiography, Sarah's biggest fans, Sarah Harding Addicts, who have also written an extract for her autobiography have launched a fan campaign to get Hear Me Out, a track from the 2004 Girls Aloud album, What Will The Neighbours Say? onto the iTunes chart.
Hear Me Out, by Sarah Harding is available to purchase now.
If you or those around you have been affected by this story, you can call the MacMillan Cancer Support line on 0808 808 00 00.
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